No More Outs

You always deceive me
If only they could see
The way you're always letting me down

Might think I'm getting stronger
But that won't last much longer
Before you drag me to the ground

I hurt
And I'm tired
You're just
Such a liar
Why can't you just let me live

Screaming
And crying
I feel like
I'm dying
I don't have any more to give

One day I know that
There'll be no turning back
Even though I don't want you to stay

Creeping on slowly
My one and my only
Eventually you'll take my breath away

Self Calm

It's not easy to mean it
When you don't believe it
These hollow words that we all say

You know that you're lying
But just keep on trying
The truth can wait for another day

You don't even know
What's real and in your head
You can't remember
All those things you said

When everything is wrong
It's all you can do to carry on

Isolation's deceiving
And you keep on meaning
To really make things work this time

But it doesn't matter
The silence gets louder
You can't cross back over that line

When everything is gone
You'll know for sure you were wrong

What can you even say
When words don't matter anyway

Tic Tac Go

Hardly
The way I had planned but I
Can't say
Or simply demand that you
Owe me
The way you're feeling right now

It's not
A matter of fact when I
Have no
Proof and must retract all the things
That I said
But live with this feeling somehow

So tell me
Is this how things should be
Cos I can't see
Why you'd do this for me

I know
If you were me you would go
So tell me it ain't so
I don't think I want to know

Just when
I think it's ok you just
Leave me
You're walking away and you
Won't stop
Please don't go why can't you stay

Break Free

It's clear to me
Now I can see
These little things
You do to me
But any way
You cut it we
Will slowly become
Enemies

And I
Don't want to be
That idea
You have of me

And surely
You can see
It's not what
I planned for me

At any time
On any day
We simply cannot
Live this way
And I can't know
Nor can I say
How we can fix
This power play

And you
Think I can't do
These things
You want me to
But I
Know there's a truth
That I
Can keep from you

It's something you will see
You can't take from me